I don’t know what I was thinking going to Monmouth University without a trust fund. Or at least parents that bankroll me.
I seriously just got a bill for $4,000 due by the 20th.
How in the actual fuck…
Should I just promise them my first born?
So much for that college education I thought I’d be getting.
He doesn’t even care.
Seriously, I can’t.
So it’s definitely Christmas. I’m positive it has nothing to do with the lack of daylight. It’s Christmas. Christmas makes me fucking depressed. It didn’t even fully set in until I went to my boyfriend’s house for RAW. It literally looks like Christmas threw up after a feast of primarily nutcrackers in his house. I had to leave. Not to mention, spent two hours there and didn’t even get a kiss. I guess cuz I am kinda sick. But seriously, I’m so fucking miserable. No one talk to me until New Year’s Eve.
And no one gives a fuck.
You ever have anyone that’s your world? Literally your whole world. This goes beyond love. It’s a totally spiritual connection to someone. Someone that having a cup of tea with in the morning in silence is worth a 25 minute drive for.
You ever lose your world? Two years later and everything crumbles around you and you’re lost. The world is gone.
And then a year after that, you stumble upon something that sparks a sharper memory. The smile, the laugh, the voice, everything. It’s not okay.
I miss you. Come home.
"So I’m not gonna see you till Tuesday." "Ok"
He really doesn’t give a shit
Three people have said goodnight to me tonight.
Not my boyfriend, though.
- A psychological/spiritual mindset will never fully understand a business mindset
- Someone with a lifestyle based primarily around music will never understand ignorance to the culture
- Being poor and working your ass off for everything you have will make it extremely difficult to blend with the privileged
I have to write a paper about a book I read for history.
Basically, what I got out of this book was that a bunch of rich businessmen didn’t like the New Deal because they wouldn’t be able to be as greedy as they were used to being. So they tried to form a bunch of committees and organizations to change it and failed. So they threw temper tantrums.
That’s not the premise of my paper though. So this is going to suck.
Holy fuck. Gaslight Anthem hits me so hard with nostalgia that I want to throw up. I miss my best friend.